Tuesday, March 29, 2005
solmate Last Friday it was still Holy Week and I have nothing to watch on t.v so i decidedto confine myself in my room and listen to the radio (there were several stations thatwere on-air)..I think it was 95.5 that I tuned into and they were playing music from the late 80'sto early 90's when my sister (ate margie) entered my room and heard the music andshe decided to lie down beside me (it was her era actually)..
Out of the blue she asked me "Do you believe in destiny?" I said "No"..I was still dumbstrucked bymy sister..We actually have this on-off relationship..We could be the best of friends and enemies and times..Then she aksed me againg.."Do you believe in soulmate?" Again i replied "No, di ba parang destiny din un?"
She actually has this friend whom he considers her "soulmate"..I was still in grade six when she met this guyand since then they were good friends..They shared the same passion, dancing, and they used to practice and hang-out at our housetogether with their barkadas..My sister was close to this guy and she actually confides her problems to himThen, eventually the guy became my schoolmate when i moved into high school..Then the guy migrated to California but still they exchanged e-mails and phone calls..I could still remember how would my sister would get excited everytime the guy would call..And my sister even told me that the guy would call at the time she would have a problem, and this has been goin on since they werein high school..And that made her realize that he is actually her "soulmate"..It was so easy for them to reminisce theirpast after not talking to each other and everything seems to fall into place when they meet and talk..And it was always a coincidencethat he would call when she has a problem..
At the end of our conversation which i didn't bother to write here anymore because some stuff were already personal my sister told me that.."Your soulmate doesn't have to be your lover then she said blah blah blah..He was never became my boyfriend and we were merely friends and that doen't mean he wasn't my soulmate" I didn't bother to listen to the other things that she saidbecause I think I got her message already..And realize that my sister actually has a point..
There are time that we've become illusioned by this "soulmate myth" that we try to look for this perfect person whom we feel at ease and whomwe easily relate to..This perfect person whom we think is our "soulmate", simply because the person makes us "complete", makes us smile and happyw/o doing anything..Then we tell ourselves that this person was made for us..What made you think that way? I think that we'll never know whowas meant for us or if you'll end up with this person..I just learned that being happy w/ a person or having this wonderful feeling for this person doesn't mean that the person wasreally for you..It may all be your illusion of a soulmate that may not really exist but all a creation of your imagination..You'll never know butyou could have "created" this person as your soulmate..you've made the persona of this person as your soulmate because you want the person to "be the one"when in fact the person is not really the one your looking coz when you find that person you're looking for the person will find you in return but that a myth..I beg to disagree..for now..as of this moment..but then again it's my defenses working saying it's not true well in fact it may be true..oh well, i'm confused..for but a mere...Stupid_Doug sitting... waiting... at 3/29/2005 10:00:00 AM | 0 comments
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"raymond j. san diego. aka monmon / momon / esdi / sd. Graduating psych student.
Gemini. Suffers from bipersonality disorder. Could last a day without talking.
Or could be the most manic person the next minute. Also suffers from sleep paralysis.
Loves the color green. Love dogs. Loves to sweat it out. Loves spongebob.
Frustrated cook. Frustrated singer. Frustrated instrument player.
Too optimistic.Too passive at times that he would laugh about things.
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