Sunday, September 02, 2007
it's been awhile it's been a long time since i've posted something on my blog. Honestly, I've been havving problems logging in, forgot my password and all....For the past few days i've been thinking a lot, contemplating due to boredom and lack of things to do beside work.. Everything is just so ordinardy and routinary, "Life really is a routine. It's just a matter of perspective that would make everything fun" - my alterego speaking. I took my first leave two weeks ago, after almost 9 months and I took another leave last Friday. I actually watched "1408" and I tell you the storyline sucks! I was in the middle of the movie and I wanted to get out...Afterwards, I needed a buffer from the awful movie that I watche so I watched "Evan Almighty" and it wasn't as funny as I thought it would be. Nonetheless, it was a good stress buster from work.
This has been what's goin on with my life - I do watch movies almost every pay day weekend w/ Michael. And i do watch alone before going home to Bulacan and I think I've been into all the moviehouse in Gateway. How pathethic. hehehe...I saw Pai twice at Podium and the snob that she is - she didn't even said "hi!". Just joking Pai! How time flies...It's been a year since a quit med school and decided to try a different journey. Yes, there are nights wherein I ask myself if i have been more patient - the why I'm patient with work. What if worked a little bit harder? - the why I do now. Questions that will never be answered. But i always tell myself that it's up to me to make all things rights and I must say that I'll never get the answers that I want, things that i really want to do with my very young life, "We have the rest of eternity to search for happiness", I firmly belive that we are all in a quest for what makes our lives worthwhile and we will only find fulfillment once we are old and gray. The humans that we are we will always look for answers and we will be happy but it's only in the end that we can always say that "I really did my best and I'm really happy about". Right now, I just go with the flow.
Yes. i do watch movies alone and it really sound pathetic. But what can I do? I get leaves on a week day. WHerein everyone is at work and/or school and more importatnly I am single. I have to admit it's hard to stay single most especially when everyone at work has a significant other. Boyfriends go and fetch after work, Girlfriends fighting over the phone and leaves taken so that they can date. Ho humm...You left at your desk mumbling and doing your work. I'm not bitter and jealous, I'm happy where I am but it's hard when people aroung you are asking you why in the world are you single? Well, I just laugh and answer "Ganun talaga eh". It's hard being single but it can really be good also. You don't have to strees yourself over managing your time because you have all the time in the world for YOURSELF..you get to love yourself and splurge for YOURSELF..now i'm sounding selfish..hehehe..Honestly, I'm just patiently waiting...Waiting for the time, for that person - insert all mushy stuff-.....I just took a step backward and maybe just maybe when the right time comes I'll be back again but right now i'm just happy where I am - what I am. Then again I'm also growing tired of it. I'm confused.hahaha! just sitting, waiting and wishing will do you no good. (=Stupid_Doug sitting... waiting... at 9/02/2007 12:41:00 PM | 0 comments
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"raymond j. san diego. aka monmon / momon / esdi / sd. Graduating psych student.
Gemini. Suffers from bipersonality disorder. Could last a day without talking.
Or could be the most manic person the next minute. Also suffers from sleep paralysis.
Loves the color green. Love dogs. Loves to sweat it out. Loves spongebob.
Frustrated cook. Frustrated singer. Frustrated instrument player.
Too optimistic.Too passive at times that he would laugh about things.
Too preoocupied with himself that he's talking in third person. "
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